This is my life

First bit of great news: today is weigh-in day and I lost (drum roll please) five whole pounds. Now, I know I've been here before and I could quite easily fall off the dieting band-wagon, but I feel quite focussed at the moment and so (hopefully) this is the start of regularly losing. The five day diet continues... in five days time!
School holidays started yesterday, which means I have three screaming maws to entertain ALL DAY for SEVEN WEEKS! Excuse me while I sneak off for a quick drink of JD (sneaks off; has drink; returns.) This also means that I have to live without Girl One for those seven weeks too. Or does it? We made tentative plans to get together during the Summer break and, well, it is a big city, but our paths are bound to cross over the coming weeks, right? And anyway, like I said, we made plans to get our respective kids together from time to time during the holidays, so we're bound to have to get together for coffee - and I mean coffee as a drink, not a euphamism.
What else to report? Well, from time to time the twins kick off, but they are pretty much grounded in a routine now, so, as long as I maintain the routine they remain pretty good. I still struggle to fit the toddler into the equation though. I mean, he gets loads of attention - probably more than most kids I would think - but I still think that he must feel like he's being shunted off every feed time.
Other things... nothing really. Well, enough to keep my mind ticking over, but nothing that would interest anyone out there in cyberspace!
Bye bye.

I don't know whether or not I was being naive, but I didn't really expect anyone to comment so nastily on any of my posts. But, nevertheless, I feel I should respond to Dawn03...
Maybe Wifey has gone looking for a slimline model. I don't know - I'm a guy and so wouldn't pick up on something like that! I do respect myself though, but at the same time, I would probably respect myself even more if I was to lose three stone. Lots of people are overwieght; I chose to document my weight-loss on this blog to try and motivate myself to succeed. I figured that if people were tracking my progress, it might help me a bit. I certainly didn't expect people (you, in other words) to beat me up about it.
Would I have an affair with Girl One? I ask myself this a lot, and every time I come up with the same answer: too many people would get hurt. I said on this blog a while ago that when I got married, it was for life, not until someone else came along. I'm not looking for an affair and would try my very best to prevent one from starting; I'm not out to hurt anyone, merely just working through my life's options via my blog.
Life is hard at the moment and that is undoubtedly because of the difficulty in our family having two extra (very loud) mouths. Having a baby (or babies) is the biggest challenge any relationship could have to endure. Yes, our affections are centred elsewhere, so we both probably feel more unloved than we ever have done previously. And yes, there will be times when I am cold to her and she is cold to me. Having twins isn't easy. I certainly have found it far, far harder than I expected, and would guess that Wifey has too. We just have to work through that and (hopefully) come out smiling at the end.
I never started a blog in order to feel disciplined and intellectual. (And, frankly, you have no idea what disciplined and intellectual things I do - don't assume everything I do is documented here.) It's just a diary, nothing more, nothing less. The only difference is that people read it. I find it helps me get my thoughts together, feel better about life in general. And I use it to calm myself down too. If I rant on here, then I'm less likely to do so at home. Sorry if that offends you or you don't approve, but you don't have to read my blog. And you certainly don't have to be judgemental.
And regarding me being a house husband, it is the only option. Money dictates these things more often than not, and that is the case with me. To have three children cared for every day would simply be too much money and so I took the plunge. I never said I would be great at it, but I'm willing to give it a go and at the end of the day, that's the best anyone can do.
So, thanks for reading and commenting, but chill out a bit too, eh?
Bye bye.

Firstly, a quick note for uksweetheart. Doh! Yes, I did mean 15 stone and not 5. Jeez, I have problems in my life but being too thin is certainly not one of them! I will try to type a little better in future!
Incidentally, since my last update, I have had a weigh-in and added many pounds to my girth. Last weigh-in was 15 (that's fifteen) stone 6lbs. But I really have tried hard this last 5 days, so if I don't lose tomorrow I will be seriously pissed off. Wish me luck!
Nothing really to report of late. Twins have been okay, which is the main reason I started this whole blog thing.
Girl One needs a mention though. Things seem to be develoing there.
Let me just say though that I'm not actively seeking out an affair. Would I have one if the oppurtunity presented itself? I don't know. I would try not to, but the way I'm feeling most of the time, I think I would like the attention that would come with an affair. (Yes, I know, all you women out there are probably throwing old fruit at your computers screens right now calling me a useless, weak, typical man. But remember - we have feelings too. When you spend your days looking after three kids and your better half is mostly cold towards you, then it becomes easy to fall into the trap of finding warmth elsewhere. I'm not trying to justify the potential for an affair, but I am trying to explain how I got to this stage.
And anyway - I'm not even having an affair!!!!
But here's the thing: does a woman know when a man fancies them? I've already said that Wifey has made noises to suggest she thinks something might be going on with Girl One (which it isn't) but what would Girl One think? I have become quite friendly with her. We've been out for coffee, talked together for longer than is probably necessary, that kind of thing. So, would you say she knows I like her? And if so, what are her motives? And what are mine? Can a man and woman really be friends without sex getting in the way? Maybe I should watch 'When Harry Met Sally' again...!
I'd appreciate some comments from people to see what they think of my burgeoning (us that the right word?) friendship with Girl One. But don't be too judgemental... I'm only a guy and we have feelings too!
Bye bye.

It occurred to me today that - once again! - I am neglecting number one son. The twins are being good(ish) which is great but I don't feel as if my first born is getting enough time. It's a vicious circle: I concentrate on the toddler and the twins don't get enough attention; I concentrate on the twins and the toddler doesn't get enough. How the hell do I find a balance?
On to other things. Tomorrow is weigh-in day and - once again! - I have eaten and drank way too much. I'm finding it extremely hard to find the disciplin to start this diet properly. I've been on it now for a few weeks but I just seem to fluctuate between being good and being bad. Must try harder...!
And Girl One? Well, she's been on the back burner for a while now, never mentioned, never thought about (actually, I think about her quite a lot, but that's just between me and you). Spend a nice half hour flirting with her the other day - and getting some back too, I thought. But never mentioned. Especially to Wifey. So how come - out of the blue - she asked me about her the other day? The sort of comment that women throw into the mix to catch us guys out. Like she knows I've got a thing for her, even though she shouldn't have the faintest idea. But there was also something else, a distinct impression that Wifey thinks there might be something for her to be concerned about. (But there's not.) Hmmmmm.
Bye bye.