Well, what a weekend!
Some background info first: about a year and a half ago, I fell out with my parents because they said I had to choose between them and Wifey, who they had decided they didn't like just because my sister didn't get on with her.
Well, I chose, which meant none of my family wanted anything else to do with me. (Including my brother, who just decided he would go along with the majority... because that's what he's always done.
So, you keeping up?
(Incidentally, when the twins were born, I went round to my parents' house to tell them, thinking that we might try and get along, only to have the door shut in my face.)
Anyway, on Friday night I got a text from my Mam: how about a reconciliation?
We texted back and forth and came to an agreement that I would go through and see her. Whereupon I learn the news that my Dad has left her for a woman half his age (my age, in fact!) and he's living with her and her son. And the affair has been going on for a couple of years.
Jesus! Talk about complicatng matters. I'm now more confused than I ever was. But something is definitely rotten in Denmark. For a start, my brother and sister are supporting my Dad in his decision. I mean, what is all that about? My parents were approaching their 37th wedding anniversary. How can they just decide that it's okay?
My Mam won't tell me where my Dad is living (although I'm trying to track him down; I will find him) and both of my siblings are adamant that they don't want anything to do with me still.
I tried texting my Dad to ask him what's going on but he told my brother to tell my Mam to tell me not to bother. But how can I not? How can I just sit back and let him do what he's done without confronting him about it?
I wonder whether that's why he doesn't want to see me: because I'm he only person likely to tell him that he's being an asshole. Both my brother and my sister have huge yellow streaks running through them and very rarely, if ever, rock the boat, even when something is very wrong. My brother is a yes-man and my sister is the female equivalent.
So then I have to ask myself... do I continue with the reconciliation with my Mam? She's made it clear that it's just her and no-one else. That makes me wonder whether she's got in touch simply because she has no-one else now. Her husband's left, so does that mean my siblings' loyalties lie with him and not my Mam? If so, I'm not sure whether they are the right reasons to get back in touch.
My head's in a spin! I just had to get some of this down to try and make sense of it. I haven't read back over everything so if it all reads like nonesense, then I apologise. I just wanted to jabber or for a bit and then I'll look back at it later and see if it helps to read of my own plight!
But I just can't get over it: my Dad runs of with a woman half his age; my brother and sister support him in that decision; my Mam contacts me out of nowhere.
I'll let you one thing: things were a lot less complicated when I wasn't talking to anyone!
And another thing: tomorrow is weigh-in day and this whole weekend has been one long take-away/alcohol binge - especially with Father's Day thrown in for good measure!
I will be sure to have a good clear-out before I step on the scales! And cut my nails and have a shave and breathe out... anything to help!
Bye bye.